Hello my darlings! How are you this fine looking day? I sure am tired as eff but really excited at the same time. Easter break has officially started and I am so down for not going to college for two weeks. I really needed a break from all the classes (and tbh the people there) and, even though I have so much in my plate at the moment, I will try to unwind and relax as much as I can.
Anyway, today I wanted to talk to you about the story behind my entry for the #GreekFaceAwards by NYX. Basically the greek version of the og Nyx face Awards, where you have to create an out of this world makeup look and compete with others.
When I first heard about it, I had mixed feelings. First things first, I don't really do special effects makeup, creepy looks etc. so I wasn't sure what I could do. The other thing that was holding me back, was more serious though.
Some people from college and this guy that was hitting on me discovered my videos and that made me feel so self-conscious and just, really, bad. I re-watched all my videos and all I could see was flaws and things I didn't like. Thus, I made them all private. Generally, I seem pretty confident, so it's hard for people to understand how insecure I can get at times.
As far as the guy is concerned, I felt I didn't look as pretty as I do now, one or two years ago. As for my classmates now, it's more complicated. First of all, that particular group is known to gossip like there's no tomorrow and be mean for fun. I already went through this in high school, with this girl who was trying to bring me down and make me feel terrible about myself (sort of a wannabe bully) and I just didn't want that kind of negativity in my life again. I'm not the victim type of person but, I don't like confrontation and some people interpret that as me not fighting back. And I didn't want that.
But then it hit me. Was I going to let them dictate my actions and tell me how to live my life? I don't think so! It doesn't matter who you are, how pretty, smart or talented you seem. There will always be haters out there, bullies and people full of negativity, inferiority complexes and inhibitions who will criticize you no matter what.
I realised that I didn't need to be better, I just needed thicker skin. Those people are so completely irrelevant to me and their opinions are worth nothing. And there is no way I will let them affect me in such a bad way ever again. I am going to do what I love, work hard and do what makes ME happy. And if they're not ok with it well, pardon me, but they can suck it! Nobody is forcing them to watch my videos, read my blog or even talk to me and I suggest they get a job or a hobby or do some volunteer work instead of gossiping about others behind their backs. Get a life people!
I absolutely love what I do, every little aspect of it, and I do love myself. And I'm never going to let them or anyone else convince me for the opposite. And you shouldn't either. Be confident, stay true to yourself and don't listen to anyone else. You can be perfect and they still won't like you. In fact, the better you are, the more threatened they feel! Leave them and their negativity behind. If you believe in yourself, nobody can drag you down. You do you boo 😘
So, here is my video. I didn't make it to the top 20, but it's ok. I adore it, my friends adore it and it symbolizes something very important to me. This is me being me. Think of it as my fairy princess alter ego. With pink, glitter, rhinestones and a tiara! Just the way I like it. ♥
I hope you do too! Let me know your thoughts in the comments below and don't forget to subscribe to my YouTube channel 😉